Previously on "Being Erica":
Do you wanna come in?
Yeah.
What is it?
You're next book - a celebrity tell-all memoir.
Okay, what's the catch?
I would like you to top edit "The Mystery of Tomorrow."
Mm-hmm.
I hope we didn't just make a huge mistake.
She was an awful mother.
My dad beat the shit out of us
and she let it happen.
Where are we?
Uh, an island.
And it would appear that you are stranded.
What are your thinking right now?
I was thinking about you.
What about me?
The rose garden was a lot like the situation
I'm in with Patrick. Um...
Life, they say, can turn on a dime.
We spend days, weeks, months trudging through the darkness,
and suddenly something shifts
and we wake up to light and hope,
and the promise of a better day.
...Could ruin our friendship,
and my relationship with Brian went nowhere.
And if you could go back?
I wouldn't sleep with Brian, obviously.
Dr. Tom: Well, let's see how that works out.
Well, thank you, everyone.
As you were.
So...
You slept in...
You're still wearing the same clothes.
Yeah.
I just didn't have a chance to change.
Hmm.
I washed my hair this morning,
and I don't think I got all the sand out.
- What are you- - Should we-
Sorry. Go ahead.
Um... I was just gonna suggest
that after everything that went down...
We should probably just talk,
you know, about what happened
and everything.
Def-definitely.
Well, I'm free right now, if you wanna grab a bite?
Ah, you know, I can't... I can't right now.
But, uh, how about dinner?
Yeah.
Is everything okay back there?
Yeah, yeah. It's just, you know,
things are complicated right now, so.
Oh. Complicated how?
Let's talk about it tonight, okay?
- Yeah. Yeah. Okay. - Okay.
Adam.
Erica, what're you doing here?
I...
Adam? The shower's all yours.
You can get a towel in the closet.
Who's that?
Dr. Tom Erica.
Life, they say, can turn on a dime...
Is everything okay?
Yeah. Yeah, everything's fine.
♪ Being Erica 3x11 ♪ Adam's Family Original Air Date on December 1, 2010
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♪ it's clearer inside of me ♪
♪ who I will always be ♪
♪ open me up to my heart ♪
♪ feels like I'm seeing in the dark ♪
♪ waking me up to my heart ♪
♪ to do it all over... ♪
♪ again and again ♪
♪ until the end ♪
♪ the sum of my dreams ♪
♪ and everything I ever wanted to be ♪
Oh, no, that does not work.
Oh, good.
Sparkling water, his request.
And as for caffeine,
did you arrange things with Ivan?
Um, earth to Erica?
Bleh... sorry, what?
Okay...
I should not have to remind you
that the future of this company
rides on us getting this book.
Right. Right.
And Ivan, he is bringing in espresso and fresh pastry.
For "carbs."
I bet he doesn't even look at carbs.
Oh geez...
No pastri- it's fine.
Ladies, I present to you...
Jay Manuel.
Hello, I'm Erica Strange.
Hey, Erica. Nice to meet you.
Nice to meet you too.
And this is my business partner,
Julianne Giacomelli.
Enchante.
Nice outfit.
Oh this? Oh, thank you.
This is just a little something I "threw on" this morning.
Ready to wear, that's me, so...
Okay.
Well, let's get down to business, shall we?
Ah... great.
So I want this book to be an expose
on the fashion industry -
from top to bottom.
From who's a top to who's a bottom
is what I think he means.
Well, yes, there will be scandal -
juicy stories that only I know
and only I can tell.
But I want to be truthful, too.
Do you want me to answer that?
No, I'm... so sorry.
Ta-dah! Coffee and treats.
And no, you don't have to tip, but...
You do have to sign this.
Aww.
You're a big, handsome man, yes?
I like to think so.
Then why do you dress like a potato?
All that extra fabric makes you look bigger than you are,
and those cut-off shorts?
Honey, you put the "bear" in unbearable.
Book off the afternoon
for a fashion intervention,
Jay Manuel style.
Okay.
Jay Manuel: And you two,
with the phone calls,
the glazed look in your eyes,
and the Lady Gaga impersonation,
you really expect me to entrust my words -
my baby - to them? No way.
Jay, don't make me say it.
Okay, I will:
New York Fashion Week, 1993.
If it wasn't for me,
"someone" would still be working the makeup counter
at the Scarborough Town Center.
You can only play that card once, Brent,
so play it wisely.
Well, I'm playing it.
Okay, I'm still... I'm still confused.
This all goes back to Brent's modelling days.
He brought me to New York, I met Tyra...
Sss...
So... Brent, you...
You really were a model?
Brent was Calvin Klein's Peter Pan, dahling.
I was boyish.
I was mysterious.
Brent turned down the advances
of Calvin's favourite photographer.
Favourite male photographer.
I was blacklisted.
If only I didn't love the ladies
as much as I do.
Your sexuality cost you a career.
Are there... are there any photos floating around?
Have you been holding out on them?
Brent isn't one to toot his own horn.
Heroin chic?
Brent's invention, not Kate Moss', fyi.
Wow.
So, you've completed your 5th week of radiotherapy.
How's that been?
Well, other than being really tired,
and the burn on my skin,
it's actually been okay.
I'm gonna suggest one more week of radiation.
Oh... all right.
Just as a safety measure.
After that, you see me every six months
for the three years,
and then annually, for a checkup.
Mmm.
And other than that,
I suggest that you go out and celebrate.
Celebrate?
The results from your last imaging
show no signs of a tumour.
You are cancer-free.
Really? You're sure?
I can tell people?
Tell everyone.
Thank you, doctor.
Thank you.
Yes, yes, Tina, it's true.
The press release doesn't lie.
We are publishing Jay Manuel's tell-all,
and we are just ecstatic to be working with him, so...
Uh, yes, of course, we're still interested.
I thought you said Jim Watt decided to go with Green Row.
What?
Reconsidered.
Uh-huh.
Great! Great!
Okay. Bye-bye.
Tina Horwitz?
In light of recent events,
her client has reconsidered his decision
to go with Green Row.
Boom! We are back in business.
So why don't you look happy?
No, I am happy, I'm... I'm just, uh...
Where is my phone?
Oh, it's that cutie-patootie, Adam.
- Should I- - No! No!
Uh...
Whoa! It's like that, huh?
Yeah, it's like that. He is a jerk.
And I have terrible taste in men.
Uh, do you wanna talk about it?
No, no. I don't wanna talk about it.
I don't wanna think about it. I just wanna go home
and watch some mindless reality tv,
but no!
My mother's insisting
that I'm coming over for dinner tonight.
Well, tell her you're not up for it.
Oh, I tried, but apparently,
Sam's new boyfriend is coming.
Oh, Stalin.
Lenin. And I haven't met him yet,
and my mother laid this major guilt trip on me.
So...
I am gonna go over
and meet Sam's wonderful new guy.
Ugh...
Do I sound bitter?
Well, a little.
Oh, chicken.
Oh...
Hey, if I ever see that Adam again,
I'm gonna punch him in the nose,
and then I'm gonna knee him in the balls.
- Okay? - Okay.
You know, to be totally honest,
I was beginning to think that you didn't exist.
Okay, enough with the conspiracy theories.
It's not like you've introduced me
to your new guy.
A new guy? You have a new boyfriend?
No, dad, Sam doesn't know what she's talking about.
Well, I think dinner's nearly done, so...
Have a seat, Gary, it's fine.
The chicken needs another ten minutes,
and that's okay
because I wanted to talk to all of you,
before we eat.
Mom, is everything okay?
Actually, it's great.
It's really great.
I had an appointment with my oncologist today
and I am cancer-free.
Oh, mom!
Oh, mom... Oh, mom!
That's incredible!
Congrats, Barb. Really, that's great.
Thank you, Lenin.
Gary, can I get you anything?
A kleenex maybe?
Or a glass of wine?
A glass of wine would be great.
Okay.
Because...
I'd like to make a toast.
O-kay.
They say you don't appreciate what you have until it's gone,
or until someone threatens to take it away from you.
This woman,
this incredible woman
gave me three beautiful children,
one of whom isn't with us anymore.
And...
Just the thought that I could lose another member
of my family...
Oh, Gary...
I lost you once, Barbara,
through my own selfishness.
I'm not gonna lose you again.
To Barbara,
and to a brighter future.
To the future.
I don't wanna talk to you.
I know.
But you don't know the whole story.
Oh, what, you're here to convince me
that the one-night stand that I barged in on,
it was just an honest mistake?
It wasn't a one-night stand.
So hear me out, please.
Okay. Go ahead.
The woman today was Beatrice.
Beatrice -
is that name supposed to mean something to me?
Beatrice is my wife.
At least,
she is in the reality Dr. Tom showed me.
Beatrice, the...
The woman that you were married to,
had a child with.
So, what, you went looking for her?
No.
It was an accident, or... fate?
I don't know how or why it happened,
but we met the other day when I was on the job
at her house.
And you saw her and you recognized her and-
we started talking...
And I asked her out.
I felt almost like I had to.
It was the same night
that we ended up on the island,
and I didn't tell you because...
Well, because we were fighting.
Then why did you kiss me?
- I don't know. - You don't know?
I wasn't expecting this to happen - any of it.
I wasn't lying, Erica...
I do feel something for you, but...
But how can I possibly compete with your wife.
Even if she is from an alternate reality.
I'm sorry.
I am trying to hate you here
and you're making it really hard.
This is a messed up situation.
Yeah.
W-what can I say?
I hate it, but I get it.
I should probably go.
Yeah.
I really am sorry.
It's okay.
Hello?
Hello, Beatrice?
Adam! Hey!
Hey, how's it going?
Good. How are you?
Good. Really good.
I'm actually just calling to see
if you wanted to get together?
When?
Whenever. Tonight?
Sure. I'd love to.
Great.
Um...
You want me to swing by and pick you up?
Or I could swing by your place?
♪ Just in time ♪
♪ I'm so glad you have a one track mind like me ♪
♪ you gave my life direction ♪
♪ a game show love connection ♪
♪ we can't deny-y-y-y ♪
♪ hey, soul sister, ♪
♪ ain't that mister mister on the radio, stereo ♪
♪ the way you move ain't fair you know ♪
♪ hey, soul sister, ♪
♪ I don't wanna miss a single thing you do-o-o-o ♪
♪ tonight ♪
You okay?
Yeah. Why?
You seem stressed.
Is it because I wanted to come over?
I don't know...
Maybe.
I'm not too sure, actually.
Thanks.
Okay.
I'm gonna admit something.
Last night, um...
Was a first for me -
meeting you,
going to bed with you on our first date.
I've, uh...
I've never done that before.
Really.
It's not like it was a bad thing,
it was just...
Oh, this is coming out wrong.
I think you're great
is what I'm trying to say,
and I feel a real connection with you.
And now I'm scaring you off, aren't I?
No. No.
Oh God...
No, Beatrice, you're not scaring me off.
You promise?
'Cause if I am
then I'll just absolutely stop being...
It's his loss.
No, don't say that.
You know, I hate it when people say that
because it's not true.
It's my loss. All right?
He met someone else, I get it.
And, you know, I don't that think
that he made the wrong decision.
Erica, come on.
Jude, I'm being serious.
Look, this other woman, she's...
Well, I can't explain it,
but, you know,
she's the one that he's supposed to be with.
So...
I thought I was supposed to be with Anthony.
And you are still with Anthony.
Barely.
Oh, honey, look. You know, every marriage,
it goes through rough patches, right?
I know,
but, uh...
I kissed another man.
What? Who?
Will.
That's all we did, but, uh...
I wanted to do more.
So, this whole concept of "he's the one"
and soul mates...
Life's a bit more complicated than that.
You're not still...?
No. No.
Okay. I ended it.
Anyway, I'm the last person
to be giving relationship advice, but...
Just don't sell yourself short.
Okay?
Wow! I seriously need a drink.
Oh hey, Dave, can we-
sorry, Erica, Ivan's gone awol
and, uh, Reggie called in sick.
What can I get you?
Uh... wine, red.
- Yeah. - And lots of it.
Okay, cool.
Oh! Our engagement brunch, have you RSVP'd?
Of course! I wouldn't miss it for the world.
Thanks.
...I always thought that pleated pants
helped a boy with my figure.
How does extra fabric help anyone look slimmer?
Ivan, you look incredible.
Yup!
I know, doesn't he?
Wave your hairy flag,
shout it to the world and own who you are!
I am bear, hear me woof!
Woof!
What's going on, Adam?
I don't know.
Why did you do that?
- Do what? - Flee.
I don't know. I just...
I couldn't breathe.
I felt trapped and so I panicked.
Dr. Tom: And is that what you're feeling, Adam?
Panicked?
I'm feeling like I shouldn't be talking about this
in front of Erica.
Why not?
Because...
She's already had to deal with enough of my shit.
Oh...
Dr. Tom: Let's bring this conversation back to what you're feeling.
You've spent the night with women before,
with Beatrice, in fact.
And you didn't feel panicked then.
This is different.
How?
I don't know. It's...
It's not a one-night stand.
It's the beginning of a serious relationship.
And that's making you freak out.
Maybe.
Honestly, I have no idea
why it felt like I was drowning back there.
I want this. I do.
You showed me what our life could be like together, Dr. Tom.
And I wanna be that guy - the guy who can commit.
Well, changing a pattern of behaviour,
it's difficult, Adam.
Yeah, I know.
Old habits are hard to break.
Because they bring us face to face with the reason
why we developed them in the first place.
And so why did I?
Dr. Tom: Here.
What's this for?
This is to help you connect to what you're feeling;
to what needs to come out, but can't.
So I want you to take that racquet
and hit this as hard as you can.
- Hit it? - Yeah.
And as you hit it,
I want you to open your mouth
and say whatever you're feeling.
I'm feeling like this is stupid.
Good. Well, then hit and say that.
This is stupid.
Again.
Harder.
I'm sorry, Dr. Tom, but this is stupid.
It's ridiculous,
and it's not helping.
- Adam- - No.
All right, well,
in that case we'll back it up then.
Let's, uh...
Well, let's start at the beginning.
Don't give me your goddamned lies, Joyce!
Nothing happened! He's our neighbour.
You smile at him like a whore!
You would have him, wouldn't ya?
If you weren't so fat and ugly!
Dad!
Ungh!
I don't know why I put up with this shit!
Adam.
Are you okay? I'm fine.
I'm fine, ma.
Thanks, ma.
You okay?
I am now, thanks to you.
I just don't know how you turned out so well.
Ma...
It's true.
If your da was half the man you are, Adam...
You just...
You need to stop letting him back in.
I just don't know what I'd do without you.
Hello?
Adam, what are you still doing home?
John. Was I supposed to meet you?
Half an hour ago, at the bowling alley.
Bowling. Uh...
I might skip it tonight.
Oh, come on, everyone's here.
Right. Uh...
It's okay, Adam.
You go out if you need to. I'll be okay.
I'll just watch a little tv, go to bed early.
All right, I guess I can see ya in 15.
All right, we'll wait for you.
Bye.
You won't be too late?
No.
And promise me, if dad comes back home,
you'll call the bowling alley.
I will.
You're sure you're okay?
If you want me to stay home...?
No.
Go have fun. Don't worry about me.
Oh my God, he's terrible.
Come on, Adam. There's only five pins there.
Watch this.
Oh!
That's just brutal.
You wanna know my secret?
I imagine it's dad down there.
It really focuses me, you know?
Yeah, you shoulda heard him tonight
accusing mom of flirting with Mr. Clement.
He's ridiculous;
So is she.
She knows it drives him mental
when he sees her talking to Clement.
Blaming the victim there, aren't we, brother?
Come on, mom gets off on being the victim
and you keep falling for it.
She does things that set dad off
and then you're always there to pick up the pieces;
make her feel better.
Our dad beats the crap out of her, John.
I know, and that's wrong.
Yes, it's wrong.
Jesus Christ, what are you saying?
That mom gets him mad on purpose?
I'm saying that she doesn't do anything
to get out of the situation.
She could leave him.
Hell, she could stand up to him,
but she won't.
You sucked!
I had six strikes in a row?
Bridget was begging to go out with me.
Good.
I can go to bed now.
You drank a whole bottle of wine?
I drank a whole bottle of wine.
- Why? - What happened?
Nothing happened,
except the two worthless pieces of shit
I've got for sons
abandoned me tonight.
Come on.
Don't touch me!
Don't tell me what I should do.
Who do you think you are?
After you pick another goddamn fight
with your father;
I take your side;
I put my marriage in jeopardy for you,
and what do you do?
You know that's not how it went tonight.
You said you weren't going to be out late.
It's late.
Look, I'm sorry.
Why don't you just go upstairs.
- And I'll finish up here. - Oh, no!
Don't you start being the good son now.
Put those dishes down!
Ma!
Get out!
Ma! Stop it! Stop it!
You're both selfish and useless and you make me sick!
Please, ma.
Enough.
Okay?
Come on.
Hey, hold up! Can I give you this?
Oh.
Perfect timing.
Are you gonna hand me that?
So?
You tell me, Dr. Tom.
- Tell you what? - What I'm doing here.
This isn't a regret, this isn't anything.
You sure about that are you?
Okay, let me rephrase that.
This isn't anything I don't already know.
So what's the point?
Because if it's to "come to terms"
with how screwed up my parents were?
Been there, done that.
So all those years of dysfunction,
you've come to terms with them?
Yeah.
As much as I can.
All right.
Well, Adam, then tell me,
what do you see going on here?
The same thing that happened my whole life.
My dad would attack, my mom would withdraw,
I'd come in and rescue her
and then she'd drink
and dump her shit all over me.
So the same pattern,
over and over again.
That's my parents' crap.
It's got nothing to do with me.
What?
Why are you looking at me like that.
Nothing. No, I'm just thinking.
About my parents.
No, uh, the garbage, actually.
You know, you put it out,
and some stranger comes along
and tosses it into the back of a truck
and takes it away.
But even though it's out of sight
and out of mind,
it never actually disappears,
does it?
It just keeps building up.
John?
What's going on? Are you okay?
I'm sorry about earlier.
I had too much to drink and my mouth started running.
I'm a terrible mother.
Like you said.
It was the drink.
When you left tonight, I tried to watch tv.
I was going to go to bed early,
but...
I felt so lonely.
You know?
Ma...
I'm just gonna sleep here, tonight.
- Ma... - Okay?
I don't know what I'd do without you, Adam.
I'd be lost.
I didn't need to go back there.
Yes, Adam, you did.
I already knew mom was messed up.
Dr. Tom: Well, we're talking about patterns,
and you can't break them
unless you know what they are
and where they come from.
I know where they come from, okay?
So can I just go?
Why do you want to go?
Because...
I'm feeling it again. Like...
I'm choking.
Like I'm, I'm drowning.
I need to escape.
And this is what you were feeling before,
with Beatrice, yes?
Look at me.
You went back there and you faced what happened,
and now you have to face how it made you feel.
And that's how you break the pattern.
Okay?
Dr. Tom, I don't wanna do...
I don't wanna do this.
Just look around
and tell us what you're feeling.
Just try it. See if it helps you.
I feel angry with her.
What does the anger wanna say?
Get away.
Good.
Don't ask me...
Don't ask me to listen to you!
Don't guilt me out!
I'm not your friend!
I'm not your husband!
I'm your son!
Leave me alone!
Let! Me! Be! Your son!
It's o... It's okay, Adam.
It's okay.
Every time she would tell me things,
come to me,
telling me that her life was shit,
I didn't know what to do for her.
I couldn't help her,
i couldn't give her what she needed.
Dr. Tom: You were her child, Adam,
and you were being suffocated by emotional needs
that you couldn't meet.
But you survived.
And so the fear that you'll drown
if you allow yourself to emotionally connect
with another person...
Well, that's no longer serving you
and you need to let that go.
Oh, hi!
- For you. - Aww!
Gary, they're beautiful.
Mmm!
I should put these in water.
Is everything okay?
I really appreciate these flowers, Gary.
But...
But I think we need to put a hold
on everything else.
Everything else meaning...?
Us.
Barb...
I still love you.
Oh, Gary...
And it took me nearly losing you
to realize how much.
Gary, you know, when I was sick,
I was living in the moment.
And now that I'm better,
I feel I need to take a step back and...
And just reevaluate.
Did you enjoy it?
It's not that simple.
Yes it is.
Life is simple, and short.
If something makes you happy,
you have to hold onto it,
'cause at any moment it could be taken away.
It's your choice.
You know how I feel.
Gary?
I did enjoy it.
A lot.
Where were you? I was worried.
I couldn't sleep.
Have you been crying?
Yeah.
Why?
Adam, what's wrong?
Friedken's chapters are lacking clarity.
Every time I try to rewrite him,
- He gets all- - Oh, whoa! Whoa!
Oh no.
Y-you try to rewrite him?
Oh my God, Brent,
that is mistake "numero uno."
You can't do that.
So what do I do?
Okay...
Thomas's a mind is like a sieve,
right?
So you have to "remind" him
that in an earlier draft of "The Mystery of Tomorrow,"
he... he put it a different way.
Oh, you are naugh-ty.
Naughty, naughty, naughty.
Guilty. Guilty as charged.
Anywho...
That should be enough to get you through
until Friedken delivers his next chapters, so.
Yes, it should. Thank you.
Julianne...
Yes?
I know I said this before
and I know you didn't believe me,
or wanna hear it,
but I am really sorry.
I was awful.
Why?
I'm serious, Brent.
Why?
Was it because I gave Erica "The Sex Scoop"?
I mean, I bruised your ego,
so you tried to ruin my whole career?
It wasn't just "The Sex Scoop."
I was hurt, Julianne.
You really hurt me.
Let's just leave it at that.
What are you talking about?
I don't know what I could've done.
C-can we please just drop it?
No. We can't. I-I can't.
Thank you for your help.
Brent!
Hi.
Can I come in?
Yes, of course.
I was gonna call you to see if you were okay,
but I just thought that... I'd give you some space
to deal with, um...
Whatever.
So, I hope that that was the right thing to do.
I ended things with Beatrice.
You did?
Yeah.
Why?
Because...
I may have been married to Beatrice in another life,
but, here and now,
my feelings aren't for Beatrice,
they're for you.
Oh.
I avoided them.
I did everything I could to avoid them.
I even convinced myself I didn't have them,
hoping that would make them go away, but...
I know I haven't been exactly stand-up
in all of this,
but I...
I actually have never met a woman I cared about
more than you.
So I came here to tell you that
and to see if you'll have me.
Come here.
What can I do to help you?
I don't know. Heh.
I'm not thinking straight right now.
I'm so happy, but I'm so tired.
I haven't slept in 48 hours.
♪ Your sweet moonbeam ♪
Come with me.
♪ ...In every single dream I dream ♪
Life they say, can turn on a dime...
♪ I knew when we collided ♪
♪ you're the one I have decided ♪
♪ who's one of my kind ♪
Lie down with me.
And in a world that constantly shifts beneath our feet,
the only thing we can know for certain
is how we feel.
♪ ...Mister mister on the radio, stereo ♪
Erica...
Just close your eyes.
♪ And hey, soul sister, ♪
♪ I don't wanna miss a single thing you do ♪
The love we have,
the fear we hide from,
the pain we push away,
give it a voice
and the rewards are peace of mind
and a peaceful heart.
♪ Mm-mmm... tonight ♪
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